OBJECTIFY OBJECTIFY OBJECTIFY

I attended Slavina's workshop on PostPorn this Tuesday

Despite the fact that the audience were silent and very unaware of the concept of PostPorn, or familiar with porn at all, I took some useful and inspirational ideas out of the evening.
Mostly it was a basic introduction to post porn and queer porn as empowerment. Slavina showed a carefully chosen couple of videos which all challenged structures existing in mainstream porn (and other film genres).

I was once again reminded about the necessity to be able to fuck the visual, and not only identify or sympathise with it. I often hear people say that they appreciate the "realness" of post porn, even if it is not necessarily turning them on. Well baby, then it's not porn your watching..
I want to watch people that can deliver sex to me. I want to take part in the scene, not only be a sympathising spectator. I want to watch porn, not witness a love act between some strangers. I need to be invited.

This is some suggestions to how to make the "real" post porn into more of a fiction fun post porn:

1- Fuck real time transportations
If it's not a live web cam show, I don't need the "IRL"-experience. Jump cut in the material, cut off middle sections, surprise me once in a while. It is not immoral to skip the part where one part is searching for a condom and then unwrapping it, and then makes a mistake, and then tries again, and then puts it on.... Fast Forward!

2- Close Up is not a crime
Just because mainstream porn is bad at it, doesn't mean you shouldn't do it at all. Close ups are necessary. You don't want to get robbed of the setting or the bodies and characters, but at some point you need to focus on a vision that speaks a very simple language. A vision that is not symbolic, that has no meaning but is only a very accessible sensation. Something given to you up front. Objectify!

3- Porn Stars
To be a porn star is not to have a lot of sex on film. It is about communicating that you are fuckable and wonderful and totally happy about yourself in a way that makes you irresistible. The porn star should always act as if they're on a stage - proud and brave and feeding on your attention. Don't just do it - be it!

FUCK TOOL EXPLORER (new video!)

I finished editing my project from last year, and now it's available to watch on my channel at QPTV - yey!

The resolution is not the best and it got weirdly cropped.. but you get the hang of it. If you would like to show it on your queer/sex positive event or festival or party - just contact me and I will get you a copy in a better quality.

Vielen Spas!

PRIVATE MANIFESTO

I wrote a manifesto because

sometimes I just get so angry

about the

things other people think is perfectly "in ordnung"

PRIVATE MANIFESTO

Nudity does not threaten me personally. To be naked might be a personal act, but not every personal act is dangerous. You tell me to protect my private parts and to fear the possible consequences of vulnerability. I ask you why?

I may “protect” my nude self by putting on work clothes. I may hide behind dress code. Hide in hierarchies and work codes. But insurance always comes with a price. I need to act according to my costume, not to my own skin. I lend my body to something external in order to keep it safe. And everytime I chose to get undressed, I receive warnings and frightened voices who feel the need to tell me about The Risk.

What is that all about?

When I used to work as a fully clothed waitress I once got totally humiliated by my boss. I got paid, so I didn't protest. What he did to me was not done to me personally, but to my professional character. It wasn't sexual, and not intended to pierce through the work costume. Of course it did.

Always protest when someone is harassing you, how ever they will make you believe that it is something you agreed to.

Never dress up

I do not own my body, I am my body.

As a teenager I wanted to wear a T-shirt that said ”caught [kå:t] (meaning 'horny')”. I had made it myself. My father didn't find the pun funny at all. He wanted to protect me, from sexual assaults, from sex, from harassment. But every insurance has a price, and I didn't feel like paying. I just wanted to be myself, to wear the T-shirt that I felt so good about. I refused to admit to any circumstance that this act should rob me of my right to be safe on the street. I was not to be responsible for the reactions of other people, when I was just beginning to explore my own sexuality. My body is not your business, it is not a business at all. Virginity is not a thing, you can not lose it because you never had it. Privacy only teach you how to treat yourself as a commodity.

Get undressed

I don't have a need to be private.

Once again, it is not my responsibility to keep other people from exploiting me. The problem is not that you see me, but that you chose to judge me. We are given ways to protect ourselves from intrusion, we have the right to remain private. But I won't be private because it hurts me to speak. I am private when I feel like it. I won't be private at all as long as I have a louder voice when I stay out in the open.

Reveal your identity

I used to masturbate on web cam for money on which I paid taxes. I often got turned on for real. My pussy didn't grasp the money game, that it got money for it, that it didn't have to be more rewarded than that. Everyone that enjoys their work should pay more taxes. They basically got double payment. I am joking, of course..

I also hustled a bit. Once when a client realized I got wet by sucking him, he asked me if I wanted him to fuck me. I did, but I said “no, not if you're not paying extra for it”. Because that was the deal. Rules had only been set up concerning prices for sex with the girl for sale. It did not say anything about intercourse with the girl that actually enjoyed it. So we decided to keep to the original plan, keeping the principles in order. It left us both mutually confused.

Keep your own currency, question value

DON'T GET CIRCUSED

I love antiques. Often when I cruise for cool vintage treasures I stumble upon this old fetish that the colonialists seemed to be obsessed with: the taming of the bear

Bears are depicted as defeated wild animals, big and beautiful but stripped of their power. I can't help feeling a connection to this as a woman. When you feel at least uncomfortable in your work, whether it is in the sex trade or any other market, make sure you don't end up like this

Confined

Owned

Exposed

Humiliated

Trapped

Broken

Forced

EXPLICIT NOTES

This weekend I attended the Explicit! conference in Potsdam, and had a great time! These are some of my notes

Weird sociologist (white, middle aged, male) is making assumptions about working class and middle class and is being a regular white male douche.
We are quite angry and annoyed by this and blows off steam at the corner bar.
Making plans for more porn in the near future, meeting porn creators and consumers as well as academics - fun!!

Giovanna Maina on how porn tries to portray real sex
perfect sex?
Porn as escapism or representational (why never both?)

Indie-porn as a political commodity
/Matteo Pasquinelli

Exploitation lies in the "how you play" not "what you play"
When women (or other subordinated) leaves a constant, invisible/structural exploitation
to play along the rules of capitalism and make money from their (otherwise constantly exploited) bodies,
they in fact enter a power position and reach liberation

There is a difference between commerce and commerce

Financially support who you believe in
Steal from everyone else

OMFG!! This is so awesome!!
Sands Murray-Wassink!! <3

PostPorn means being able to create art out of testimonies of your personal sex life?